Surely it’s not just me. There must be others who either think or experience the same.
So I love staying at home, watching a movie or going to the gym. A real granny. At the same time I love going out to dance, meeting new people and have a fucking fabulous night.
It is very rare though, happens once in a while – and Im sure to pick my occasions. I have always been like that though. I would never drink ‘to feel better’ or ‘getting in the mood’ and my friends know that in trying to convince me of going out is literally letting me be convinced by myself. Otherwise it would backfire and I’ll be sure to stay in for the night.
OR we would go out for a dinner and just ‘spontaneously’ happen to go out for a few hours. That would often be the best scenario, it always is.
However. There’s a part of me that want to be like ‘everyone else’ meaning that why would I not be able to go out every weekend or not just every weekend just have a few drinks occasionally – well my hangover is not from heaven. Thats for sure. I also tend to get really anxious. With this in the back of my head, makes me feel less relaxed so to say.
There has been times when Ive been going out more and then others when its less.
Already said no to 2/3 parties – but with during final exam period, I reckon it is quite understandable – yet I havent been out since in months. So now when finals are over and no more excuses. Went and got an outfit for the night to go to this party.
I knew that I was heading home early because Im going on a plane tomorrow.
Youre supposed to be out and about when youre in my age. Or otherwise youll regret it.
To be honest I feel like im trapped in a 24 yo girls body with a 45 yo mind. I literally just want to be 40.
Being in a new country, trying to get to know new people makes it really hard of what I just described. And yes, its all about finding likeminded people but the problem is that the ones who enjoy doing the same things as me is really really weird people. In my opinion. Like, we are not like minded at all. We do not get along for some funny reason.
I get along with the people that is out and about every weekend, doing crazy shit while I prefer doing popcorn and watching braveheart?
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